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01:16am on Friday, 10/12/07 ] |
(Yes. I'm a horrible, awful, drama-causing bitch. And I even censored myself while writing this. This is as nice as this entry is going to get.)
You know what?
Next time a long relationship of yours ends, you lose your part time job, your grandma is diagnosed with cancer for the third time in three years, and you find out that your mom got pregnant and miscarried- all within a one week span-plus you hate your roommate, you hate your full time job and you're going to lose your drivers license because you don't have a credit card to book the test or a car to do your G test in so you have to go back and re-take your G1 and start all over- I'll remember to judge you, your actions and your reactions.
Thank you all so much for your caring support over this last month. I appreciate every single one of you not being there for me when I needed people the most. Thank you for judging me without knowing that I actually should be on medication but decided when I was 14 that I was going to deal with it myself, my own way.
But you know what? Just because I haven't been sober doesn't mean I've been wasted every night. I didn't realize that a glass or two of wine or a few beers when I got home and watched hockey or football was anything horrible. Thank you for showing me the error of my ways. And god forbid I smoke weed to help balance me out so I can actually function without worrying about my cyclothymia going nuts on me because of the stress.
I didn't fucking care. At least not until I checked my email.
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07:04pm on Tuesday, 11/7/06 ] |
Ok..so my LJ is officially
FRIENDS ONLY
All of you are already on my friends list. But new peoples..you can't read this unless I add you
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